Loving and Letting Go

Why is it that after a major heartbreak from someone you really love, you find it hard to let yourself trust anyone with your heart again? And even when you really want to, you still find it hard to fall in love again?

I have told myself many times over that I'm okay now. And I have even managed to convince myself that I am ready to open my heart up to the possibility of falling in love again. But everytime someone tries to get close, my heart just keeps resisting. I keep telling myself that it's okay, that my heart is ready to take risks again. But the fear of making the wrong choices keeps holding me back.

I could say that I feel this way because I am afraid of having my heart broken again. And partly, I am. But more than that, I'm afraid of having to break someone's heart again. Especially when that someone is someone that I care about. Believe me, that hurts even more. And that is mostly why my heart keeps refusing to let anyone get too close.

Love has never been simple, or easy. I wish it was, though. But I suppose that's only wishful thinking.

Love will always be what it is. Sometimes, it might take us to places we don't want to go to. And we won't have any choice but to follow. I suppose Illegible is right. Love is blind and it often tends to control us and not the other way around.

I just wish it didn't have to hurt so much that I couldn't trust anyone, even myself, again. I really wish it was that easy to let go and move on. But I suppose some things are easier said than done.