Love And Sex
Oh, to once again be a teenager.
My early sexual history was not the most 'normal' sequence of events. I lost my virginity on a one night stand to a guy I met at the Superbowl. He had a dodgy perm, thought he was black, and drove a Fiesta with a green stripe.
However, I reformed, and at the tender age of seventeen, embarked on my first three-year relationship.
What a fuck-up.
"How to learn everything you need to know about relationships before you're 19".
I believed in love everlasting, in the sanctity of marriage, in first loves being forever, all that shite.
Some of us never learn. I never got rid of that losing streak.
You can get a hell of a lot out of sex. You can enjoy casual sex frivolously and believe that you're happy. You can get used, use other people, get caught in that cycle of zero commitment and fun all the way. But you end up feeling empty, whatever.
My days of casual sex are over. Having come back out the other side, I'm not sure I could fall back into such nonchalance, although in some ways I genuinely aspire to it.
My early sexual history was not the most 'normal' sequence of events. I lost my virginity on a one night stand to a guy I met at the Superbowl. He had a dodgy perm, thought he was black, and drove a Fiesta with a green stripe.
However, I reformed, and at the tender age of seventeen, embarked on my first three-year relationship.
What a fuck-up.
"How to learn everything you need to know about relationships before you're 19".
I believed in love everlasting, in the sanctity of marriage, in first loves being forever, all that shite.
Some of us never learn. I never got rid of that losing streak.
You can get a hell of a lot out of sex. You can enjoy casual sex frivolously and believe that you're happy. You can get used, use other people, get caught in that cycle of zero commitment and fun all the way. But you end up feeling empty, whatever.
My days of casual sex are over. Having come back out the other side, I'm not sure I could fall back into such nonchalance, although in some ways I genuinely aspire to it.
posted by A Girl Like Me | 11:38 pm
Re: All your recent posts - have you been replaced by a chav whore, or were you like this all along?
Lol at 'chav whore'. What can I say? To be honest, I've run out of inspiration.
Well, you should be out of inspiration.
You learned everything you needed to know about relationships at the tender age of nineteen.
How perfectly naive.
I think I did, actually. From what I've experienced since, nothing has touched on what I went through then. Age has nothing to do with naivety. I've probably reverted to being more naive now at twenty-five than I was at nineteen.