The Idea of "Us"

"I guess you haven't noticed lately but its a "me" world. You want a relationship but you don't even consider the fact that its about what I want from you. With Myspace and things like ipods almost everything I could possibly think about in this fucked up world is directed towards what I want. I just don't see the "us". Not only is "us" a scary thing but unrealistic. How could I ever put you first? Even while saying this I started with myself. I've been told to be myself my whole short miserable existence. Never have I heard be "us". This love thing everyone talks about so adoringly has never been an "us" thing. Its about how I feel when I'm with you. Sometimes I feel great most of the time so-so. Basically hating the fact that I'm afraid of butchering this thing I have with you. Notice I didn't say "we". There is no "we". Never will be. There's I and you not you and I. I figure if I repeat this a little more you'll give up on the "us". Remember there is no "us". Please just imagine how I feel when you say "we" need to talk about "us". How could you just put two of my no-no words in a sentence? Why don't you go curse in church too! I didn't want to talk about "us" but you insisted. For some reason you feel like I'm not serious about "us" and that this isn't a game for you. That's where you start to lie. Everything's a game and it seems I'm being told to win it everywhere I turn. I know your heart is not a trophy. It is an organ it pumps for you to live. Given to me to put on display to glorify "us". To declare "us" as a team. There is no "I" in TEAM but there's a "me". That's all that really matters.... me. For you to give me your heart is committing suicide. "