im sorry.

im sorry for sounding so childish,
getting upset over what seem to be, trivial, matters,
but i cant help it.

im sorry for being sad because you leave him testimonials and not me,

im sorry you never do reply my emails,

im sorry you always, always, always miss my calls and give me silly reasons,

im sorry you seldom come online on your own free will to chat with me,

im sorry im always hoping secretly you will remember what you promised,

im sorry i have to wait so often for you, to tell me something, to hear from you, only to get disappointed all the time.

im sorry you cannot assure me.

im sorry you havent told your parents about us despite us coming to three years,

im sorry i nearly got knocked down by your mom, and all i got was a glance from her because she doesnt even know of my existence,

im sorry that my parents think im stupid to stay with you to let you toy with me,

im sorry i feel insecure.

im sorry for all your mistakes or not,

im sorry for not being able to understand why you just cannot do these small lil' things for me,

im sorry for wallowing in self-pity and always and forever feeling upset over the same damn things,

im sorry for being your girlfriend,

i feel sorry for myself.

im sorry, to think of leaving if you still dont change soon,

im sorry to not have enough faith in you.

im sorry for creating excuses for you all the time,

im sorry to say, i love you too much to give up.

we were a mistake from the start, perhaps.