Recoiling and Retracting
This relationship is not based on who holds the whip. It's always been about equality, trust and making each other happy.
Right now, you're not making me happy. In fact, you're making me feel like I want to die inside. And I know it's not your fault, it's not your intention; it is in fact more to do with me than with your actions.
You've done nothing wrong.
But it's making me retract. It's making me want to keep part of myself from you. And it's reducing my love for you.
Instead of making me realise how much I care, it's pushing me away. My own psychosis is fucking me over, and the only escape I have is the fact that it won't be long, you'll soon be back here in my arms where you belong, and I'll feel safe again.
All the time I don't feel safe, I'll push you away.
You're breaking my heart, and you don't even know it.
Right now, you're not making me happy. In fact, you're making me feel like I want to die inside. And I know it's not your fault, it's not your intention; it is in fact more to do with me than with your actions.
You've done nothing wrong.
But it's making me retract. It's making me want to keep part of myself from you. And it's reducing my love for you.
Instead of making me realise how much I care, it's pushing me away. My own psychosis is fucking me over, and the only escape I have is the fact that it won't be long, you'll soon be back here in my arms where you belong, and I'll feel safe again.
All the time I don't feel safe, I'll push you away.
You're breaking my heart, and you don't even know it.
posted by A Girl Like Me | 8:27 pm
i don't know how many times i've felt exactly that, like i'm pulling myself away. it scares me more than anything.
What in the name of Jesus is this man doing to you?!! Toughen up chick.