What do you do?
In all seriousness. . . I'm not looking for cynical answers. . . although perhaps some are needed to bring me face to face with reality. . . although, I'm more than aware of the reality. . .
What do you do when you believe you have met the person you are supposed to be with. What do you do?
What do you do when there is a connection so deep that it cannot be severed no matter how hard one tries.
What do you do when you KNOW that someone has been put in your life for a reason.
What do you do when this person woke you up from the deepest of sleeps to all the possibilites of life and made you realize all the things you want in life, but have been too scared to go after, -- including and especially her -- not because you're afraid of failing, but because you're afraid of actually getting what you want - - as crazy as that is. You've gone after her, but only in the meekest and most pathetic of manners. And cried and thrown fits when you've failed.
She's the girl from Rochester.
Rochester's significance for me -- Higher Education and family -- or more specifcally starting a family. Just suffice it to say the significance is extremely deep.
She has been my Higher Education. Through her I have learned much about myself, spirituality, reconnecting with my family, letting go of the past, about forgiveness -- myself and others -- and love and the things in this life that I want.
I believe. I KNOW. I am convinced that she been sent to me for a reason. At very least to be my higher education.
And I believe, but obviously do not KNOW, that she is the one with whom I am meant to be. To start a family. If I have a soul mate on this earth, it is she. She has twice chosen to be with someone other than me. But I believe in large part she sensed I was scared and she was scared herself.
Of course, if I say this shit to her. She'll freak out.
I am not crazy. I have tried to shake this. To run from it. Thought I was nuts. And was scared shitless. But I'm not crazy.
What do you do?
What do you do when you believe you have met the person you are supposed to be with. What do you do?
What do you do when there is a connection so deep that it cannot be severed no matter how hard one tries.
What do you do when you KNOW that someone has been put in your life for a reason.
What do you do when this person woke you up from the deepest of sleeps to all the possibilites of life and made you realize all the things you want in life, but have been too scared to go after, -- including and especially her -- not because you're afraid of failing, but because you're afraid of actually getting what you want - - as crazy as that is. You've gone after her, but only in the meekest and most pathetic of manners. And cried and thrown fits when you've failed.
She's the girl from Rochester.
Rochester's significance for me -- Higher Education and family -- or more specifcally starting a family. Just suffice it to say the significance is extremely deep.
She has been my Higher Education. Through her I have learned much about myself, spirituality, reconnecting with my family, letting go of the past, about forgiveness -- myself and others -- and love and the things in this life that I want.
I believe. I KNOW. I am convinced that she been sent to me for a reason. At very least to be my higher education.
And I believe, but obviously do not KNOW, that she is the one with whom I am meant to be. To start a family. If I have a soul mate on this earth, it is she. She has twice chosen to be with someone other than me. But I believe in large part she sensed I was scared and she was scared herself.
Of course, if I say this shit to her. She'll freak out.
I am not crazy. I have tried to shake this. To run from it. Thought I was nuts. And was scared shitless. But I'm not crazy.
What do you do?
posted by blog prince | 6:39 pm
The only tip I have is to communicate. Too many people sit on ideas till it's too late and then regret it. And fear of success is little different to fear of failure as they both address an unknown fate, but in your case you really have nothing to lose and everything to gain should it work. But ask yourself what's behind the fear and you may crack more than one person but other issues as well.
But, David, he does have something to lose by communicating. Right? He might freak her out and she might go running for the hills...
Apart from that, I can't offer anything but cynicism, and you stated you don't want that so I'll keep quiet.
Yeah, I know there's a high degree of fantasay here. And that's okay. Sometimes fantasy is a way for us to work out things that in reality we're not ready to put into action. Think of the kid with the imaginary friend. And of course, what greater fantasy is there than realizing your dreams? Your fantasies come true? Sometimes they do. In one way or another. The danger can be in communicating these fantasies, too soon or to the wrong people. Or not quite recognizing the element of fantasy. Or failing to recognize that you will be crushed if you are too harshly woken up from your dream. I know there are a lot of cynical hearts in this forum.
Whatever we do we can't control or often predict the outcome. Most events come as a surprise, good or bad so no harm in taking every opportunity in case it works, you can only make a profit as rejection leaves you the same, not worse.
I'm not cynical, just unlucky, but I know there's no reason anyone can't succeed sooner or later.
I would say go for it...except that I myself is in love with a gal who would teleport so far and so fast outta my life that I'll never see her again if I ever do anything as much as hint at us being together.
So I know. But my first instinct is that if you're gonna die anyway, die trying instead of quietly in a rat infested creaky prison cell.
You have a 50 50 chance here. Do you want to die not ever knowing if what you were feeling is right? Like you said this could be higher learning. If you do say the words, and she does run, then you not only know what you were feeling was wrong, but you would have learned not to trust that feeling again. I learned
The only thing I can say is that you have a 50/50 shot here. Do you want to die not knowing if she was the one after all? If she does run then you know that you were wrong and your higher learning comes into play and you learn not to trust that feeling anymore.