If I Could Be Your Angel.
I don't understand how love works.
Does love make a person perfect,
or does a perfect person easily excel in love?
Why am I imperfect,
and neither can I love well?
Or can I actually love well,
but I'm not perfect enough?
Why can't I ever be his perfect half?
Why do I always think I'm beneath him?
Can this love game really fuck a person up,
or is it just not my cup of tea?
Does love make a person perfect,
or does a perfect person easily excel in love?
Why am I imperfect,
and neither can I love well?
Or can I actually love well,
but I'm not perfect enough?
Why can't I ever be his perfect half?
Why do I always think I'm beneath him?
Can this love game really fuck a person up,
or is it just not my cup of tea?
posted by Amanda | 7:01 am
was it a story or it was you as a man with a female you came across in real life. where is your wifey
he has perceived the environment and his decision has been very firm since beginning:
1. he nv intended to build a relationship with her in reality
2. h nv made any solid commitment
but 1 thing for sure may be she still has value to him and his wife for their building relationship and future together in this life
those values may not have been desired by him nor his wife, qutie the contrary, they hope to get rid of it if possible, but forcefully imposed on them by fate and conscientious as social being..
yes he was nv and will nv be interested in marrying her...
some inspirations may be needed for marriage,
who has accused his decision which seemed to be acceptable to normal being, see how 3rd respond to his report
like MD, he left and did not explain his decision..
may be sometimes, bad luck happened..
when she accepted him, it was him who started playing game.. never outside world, how those girls used...
anyway, if nv real and over..
tons of efforts
comforts of hearts
if God exist, explain himself before God..
in normal life, damage is limited but not unlimited...
we are ordinary people seeking ordinary life, not high profile as Mother Theresa to glorify her God in this life --- sincerely
is communism a very attractive ideology??
or people should be healthy
sadness, cut to heart will pass because real life has been moving on as decided and acted..
I am not sure if he truly loved or loves her
It seems he need inspiration in his mind to keep himself with spark and lightning to face life drama
he did not intend it but his self interest and structure
now as father-to-be, he gradually switch to a life inspiration that can be controlled by him..
but conscientious made him and his wife feel something ... like when he felt he has used adrienne and felt had to do something for adrienne..
anyway, if tons of efforts, comforts of hearts.. damage is normally limited in this life, but not unlimited
sincerely
he put what his reply was in action when she silently asked him in heart - do you want to have a relationship with me in reality?
think about what his girlfriend would have done if he replied to her question by playing around with girls?
if she loved him, why wanted to stay with him, if not jealous his play around, she did not love..
no choices..
may be he knew from the beginning, remember he did not sleep only with one woman..
like she shared her phase of biography in clear, plain words..
when people are comfortable, they share in clear details
like when she share the phase of life in clear, plain and true words
when people feel comfortable, share in writing
would help a lot
people do whatever they feel comfortable
works yield results
many things have 2 sides
when a girlfriend and wife looks and behaves satisfied and gracefully, her hubby might have given her a lots of assurance and support
supply and demand in a market
many people want happy family lives and need advices and inspiration to cultivate marriage..
it is common and normal
if people are comfortable, like share life phase in clear wordings
do whatever people are comfortable with
"""Let it be a scar on my feet and nothing more
thanks for slapping me awake. i guess its something new for me. for 6 yrs, 6 heartbreaking yrs, i finally got out of e shadow. aft knowing wat it is all abt - wat love is about. =)
wish u all e best,
my dear friend"""""
in Cyber:::
hubby may not know he truly love his wifey only.. because love need cultivation in real life..
don't forget what hubby and wifey, together, wrote and did in reality...
he signaled her to come back with empty promises === may be people should be healthy..
marriage needs cultivation and efforts..of course it would be good always have outside inspiration (FREE) to make hubby and wifey seem being exclusive partner together, fighting against those admire their sweet marriage..oh
working together partner always have sweet time when fighting together against outside world..
may be people should be healthy..
if God exist, God, many efforts and tons of comforts of hearts... there was nv real love in reality.. you are God you know everyting
standing doggy and kneeling.. hubby entangled and twisted with each other and passionate kissed, to lips??
i know
hubby really want to revolve around his wife ONLY in real life.. he does not want prescription if he can.. he really want to do it himself.. both hubbby and wife do not desire FREE prescription...who want be controlled by others??
things ended would end itself..
when feel comfortable,can share phase of life in CLEAR, PLAIN and true wordings.. would help..
do whatever people feel comfortable
truly
do you want our relationship grow... yes in working context only...
it had always been a deal, the deal was in working context, or in cyber only..
she tried to put it in reality so the horrible thing happened..
if she wanted to continue the deal herself in cyber, that's her choice, thought he.
so there was no love, like an affair, it was pleasure to mind seeking...
she was a fool, a real fool
marriage is not affair because there are commitment and responsibilities... also sharing of social and real life...also acknowledgement in front of social cirlce..
affairs are dirty secrets, cannot let anyone know except wifey..
it has been clear in his mind since beginning, actually, he knew he could nv marry her...
anyway
things ended, it ended itself
many affairs ended, some beautifully, some bitterly...
MD was good, he truly respected himself and others and he truly was looking for real love
both hubby and wifey received the gift from above with gratitude.
after receiving the gift, they both put 100% effort to make marriage work and blissful..
so they now both getting what they want because of their efforts and commitment, both happy..
so
should i recve such gift one day, i will do the same
the gift should be explicite ... he should make it very clear he is very sincere and serious in intending and will put 100% to make it grow in reality -- no need to worry if it would work out or successful at the end because no one could foresee the future, at least there is solid intention of putting the dream to come true..
Sadly, up till now, nothing just described has happened yet..
the future fate will decide...
IFFFF
He
'''''A love like this
As fate had it --- had to be over.
Over too damn soon.
......
May my love transcends the test of time.....
If my love can't be yours this lifetime. I shall wait for the next....
lie next to you, My heart shall be yours ............shall never be a day without u in my life.
All I wish now is for your happiness-----
if fate - we will meet again.
And you will love me again.
Next time, it'd be for eternity.
Until then.
Much love..............''''
Goodbye, Monkey
I bumped into this blog randomly...coz am a cunt like that! I started reading it back from 2005 archives.. and read each and every post till date in 3 days. All I can say is that from being a cunt-hearted musing it has gone down to sappy sobby teenage bullcrap !!
history repeat..
like 2001 since dating, moved out by ownself, started a new phase of life, instead of ownself but have girlfriend sharing life together...
now, life begin, own family, father-to-be, a new phase of life again..
sincerely..
may God bless everyone..
friends first, then lovers..
wifey has been feeling very safe cos since ever they've known each other:
1. he explicitely make it clear she was his girlfriend
2. he show her he is 100% serious about the relationship and put his commitment in this relationship in words and in action in front of both of their social circle
he has always respect wifey, always honour her..
'i don't think good idea to put the ring in your drink or something like that, you probably drink it without knowing it..' it's true best marriage begins with best friendship...
i think he was very release when he finally he felt he was 100% comfortable about himself when he felt he was allowed by his heart to say - it was nv real and will nv be real..
a marriage is full of happiness, mutual 100% respect, mutual 100% possession, mutual 100% commitment...
he always respect and protect his wifey..
imagine what the girlfriend would have done if he replied her question by saying in action to those girls - babes i am 7/24 available and played around..
supply and demand in market... it has nv been a match in common sense, he has been a wise person, i guess, sincerely
what more to say, it's like a cut to heart and soul...
when
standing doggy
kneeling
hubby & wifey twist together and passionate kiss?
cuts to heart and pain in heart will pass
may God bless everyone including me
happy thanksgiving
his wiil has always been reflected in his actions, no matter what have been in his mind..
have a happy thanksgiving, sincerely
simple:
most people are rational and know what they could do, what the results would be, what their heart want..
my 2 cents:
rational always win in this physical world, it does not matter what people have in their mind, like movies, thing knitted in mind can be infinite --- don't trust that, they are not real...
if you want to have a place to live, to have paycheck, to function as a normal social being, follow rational thinking, love can be cultivated in real life because every one has their own values that could be appreciative... never trust that 'my feeling tells me i really did love you..' Never believe that 'truth :D.."
conclusion:
there has never been real love between hubby and her
To the last anonymous, haha yeah, that's what I thought too!
It's like a story about him/herself... Gosh!
Lets talk about sex
it's nice to have a special person who is your girlfriend/boyfriend
It can be nice to hug and kiss, if both people want to.
It can be nice to touch breasts, if both people want to.
It can be nice to touch each other’s penis or vagina, if both people want to.
nice picture following line
http://www.toronto.ca/health/sexualhealth/letstalkaboutsex.htm
http://www.toronto.ca/health/sexualhealth/letstalkaboutsex.htm
www.toronto.ca/health/sexualhealth/letstalkaboutsex.htm
hubby knew fm beginng what a woman want, remember he had not only one girlfriend..
i love u but i can't make the commitment now...
after she accepted him, it was he who started playing the game.. how those girls used...
hubby knew
- what commitment mean
- what love mean
- what marriage mean
- what a bf/gf relationship mean
- what spark in a relationship mean
- what cultivation of love in daily lives mean (7/24 bf/gf relation, exclusive to others, sharing every details of lives - lunches, dinners, spare time, phones, every minute.....)
bf asked gf jump, gf would jump..
bf knew who got upper hand, and what he had in this world to let him have stuff...
So this is a happy and well-found marriage, it is
- 100 pc mutual respect
- 100 pc mutual possession
- 100 pc 3rd party exclusive (sharing bible with gf only)
- 100 pc mutual effort to make marriage work
what more can say
bf and gf huggged, kissed, touched breast, touched penis, caressed each other's bodies in the dark every nite..
explanation??
it was a mistake, should not have thought missing, did not want to leave......
if God exist, one can explain himself before God...
like in working place may be, challenges sometimes not from outside world, from ownself or conscientious???
BUT
when MD.. MD openly invited her to his church, when MD left and got married, he did not spend a word to explain to the world how he got a girlfriend and got married..
sincerely, if God exist, one can explain himself before God...
when thing ended, it ended itself..
tons of efforts, comforts of hearts - both
sincerely
remember sad past drama always...
don't trust people one don't really know who they are
sincerely
may God bless everyone
i agree with you about love :)
our bodies are too far but ideas are closed:)
from Turkey ;)
Pinky
omFUCNG GOD. ya'll are so annoying. i don't read these to hear you griping to each other about some god damn affair you had. damn it.